Another waiting room, another city. More families waiting anxiously for results, procedures, tests and treatments. The brightly painted walls and colourful checkered floors, children’s artworks and games and clowns; an attempt to mask the hospital stench. Pulling smiles as painful as pulling teeth. So many similarities in all hospitals so far. Parents on phones, kids on tablets; lost in a virtual world, escaping reality. Aiden glued to a Monster game, with exotic islands, creatures and quest that offer rewards, offering attainable goals and escape. Yes please.

I sit here, in such a familiar yet unknown place. I have no clue as to what to expect, what outcome, what path we will head on, what options there are. Sitting in limbo, unable to plan or prepare or settle. I feel hopeful and scared, excited and nervous.  Every other emotion I can not even name. Through it all trying to navigate through fog, to solve a puzzle with half the pieces missing. To make the best desisions. There is no crystal ball and I do not think there are second chances. So we do the best we can with the information that we have, like all parents just wanting the best, better then for ourselves…..