Mommyyyy, Mommyyyy.” I awake in a panic. I call out Aiden’s name but then realize he is at his Dads. “Where is my phone?” I look to my side table, it’s not there. I rush downstairs and pick up my boyfriend Jays phone from the table. “What’s the number? What’s the number?” I send text […]
I can’t even use the word exhausted to discribe our lives right now as it does not even come close to the actual feeling. This round of chemo is taking its toll, beating Aiden down so bad he can hardly hold his head up. For over a week now Aiden has pretty much been on complete bed rest except for frequent trips to the washroom to expel everything from his body…..
I will never be able to look back and say it was not for lack of trying. I have faltered, I am not this strong person people see all the time, but….
Growing up I felt like I had all the time in the world. I was carefree and invincible. I believed in infinite possibilities. My friends and I would make up dances on the beach, we would climb tress and make forts. We jumped out of barns onto piles of hay or snow boarded down the […]
I try to fill the void, this pit thats grows each day. Time passes, I step away, I withdraw The strength I once felt, vanishes The exhaustion over comes me I try to sleep but even that gives me no mercy I toss and turn with endless thoughts, never relenting I feel empty and hollow […]