2 months, 7 days…. My concept of time blows around with the wind as I try to navigate these new feelings, my grief balanced with my love of life and this new voyage I have been forced into. I have had a very difficult time writing, although I know it has always been my saving […]
How do I say goodbye to my beautiful wolverine baby that I grew in my body for 9 months? Who I rocked to sleep suckling at my breast for 12 months? Held his tiny fingers as I taught him how to stand, to walk to eventually run. Who I comforted in times of sadness and […]
One of the most difficult things while we were away was being separated from Jay and his Girls. Many FaceTime calls were filled with tear on how much we missed each other. We had plans for the girls and Jay to drive down for the March Break thinking we would still be in Memphis for […]
The house is so quiet which causes me to feel uneasy. The calm gives room for my anxiety to grow but I also know I need this time to absorb all the events of the week. I need this time to freely sob and to just stay in bed and sleep and recharge as much […]
I can’t even use the word exhausted to discribe our lives right now as it does not even come close to the actual feeling. This round of chemo is taking its toll, beating Aiden down so bad he can hardly hold his head up. For over a week now Aiden has pretty much been on complete bed rest except for frequent trips to the washroom to expel everything from his body…..